This past weekend I took Tony George’s Singing as a Spiritual Practice for the second time. We were asked to bring in a song and I brought in a song that I think is the hardest song in the world to sing because you cannot sing it, you must feel it, channel it and let God sing through you.
The song is called “Yes” from Shekina Glory Ministry’s CD. The Gospel choir I sing in does it every year and only the singers with this ability to “channel” God’s voice sing it. Usually someone who is a pro with a CD or two out there.
The original song is sung from Jesus, asking us “If you really knew what I want of you, would you say, ‘Yes’?
When I hear the song I weep. I always have wept through it, even now as I write, the question makes me weep with longing for Jesus. This weeping is called Shekina, holy spirit moving through me.
So I took the song to the workshop and Tony works with the whole class privately with your song to help you connect to the words on a deeper level.
We first talked about why I chose the song. It is because I have been longing to connect to Jesus all my life but probably something called Post Traumatic Catholic Syndrome blocks me. I long to say Yes to a deep connection to him and to God through him.
So Tony, a master teacher on a soul level, suggested that I am relating to the crucified Christ, not the resurrected one. This is the Jesus I must connect to. I must connect to my own resurrection. We talked about how when Jesus resurrected he asked Mary not to touch him because he was not fully himself and that I am also in a process of becoming fully myself in God. I have the desire and I am saying “Yes” to the process.
He suggested I not sing the lyrics of the song but only the refrain, the word “Yes,” which is repeated numerous times. As I sang it, the thing that happens when those great singers sing the song happened to me. Spirit took over and rewrote the song. I’ve heard it said that singing is praying twice.
And so I prayed on the deepest soul level, I said “Yes”
So each morning this will be my practice, to meditate and sing this song.
Here is a video of our choir doing the song.
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